I'm starting this blog with an introduction. This is my daughter Ava Rose...I put her first because she is the beat of my heart, the essence of my soul, and the cheesy little apple of my eye. She just turned one and I am doing everything I can to balance the two conflicting lifes that I desire.... The one where I do any and everything I want, whenever I want; and the other one where I am the existential model of perfection as far as mothers go. You (or I should say 'I') can not have both. Something I learned, fought, and accepted is that children take charge of your life. It's not their fault they are so greedy as to want want want or even that they lack the capacity to simply survive if left alone for longer than 10 minutes. No, it is not their fault but that doesn't mean us mothers, who love and adore our ever needing children, do not go mildly insane....
So where does that leave me and you (my lovely readers)? Well you are meeting me smack in the middle of an identity crisis. This blog is about finding....something. I don't know what yet, I do know that I know nothing at all. I know that everything I previously desired is slowly melting into a giant puddle of seemingly useless mush. I know that I am lost.
On that note, introducing me, Noelle. Flawed, troubled, and simply in pursuit of happiness like the rest of humanity.
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